Do you know what affects you the most sometimes? In my case, it’s when someone who is really close to me stops talking to me. I know something has gone terribly wrong in his life because of which he has decided to stay away from all the interactions. It does affect me in a big way. I can’t stop thinking about how happy he used to be and all those little buddy moments we used to share.

I started to notice this when I sat in front him talking all about all the bullshits of the day and he kept staring at his food. Not in a thousand worlds, he would have done that if he was happy. I could see his face, which is a big figurative emoticon which usually looks like 🙂 started to look like:-(. Then I found him constantly stopping at some point and looking at whichever object that catches his eye. I couldn’t remain heedless. I asked him if everything was okay. Definitely not I knew. Clearly, he didn’t want to share it with me. Then I realized I didn’t deserve to know because I am just one of those “hi-bye” friends.

It just sucked to see this arid sober face every day.

Then two days later, around 11pm, I got a text from him about the reason for his sadness. The moment I heard it, I started to weep. Though I cannot mention it here, all I can say is it would collapse anyone’s strength. He told me that he is not able to get over it. Even I know how hard it is. At that moment, all I could do was to fill him with mental strength which he badly needed. I did my best to bring his sorrow down and cheer him up. At that exact time, 1am, I realized he is not just a guy whom I meet every day, he is my best buddy. My BFF.


As the days passed it seemed everything was okay. We came to know each other well. He supported me and stood by me. It was a great feeling because I finally found someone whose memories will stay in my heart and about whom I will tell my kids a story one day. I believed he had moved on and came out of this well of depression until one day when he texted me “how is my disguise?”. I was startled and had clearly no idea of what this disguise of his was. Then I came to know that he wasn’t still over it and was masking his feelings all this time. Though it was the very beginning of our friendship, I had already lost most of the time. And still losing. He keeps on staying aloof. I wish he could somehow come out of it really soon because even I am not in the greatest of conditions either. I hope you get this and end the growing ennui around me. Missing you “brah”(as I would always call him).


The much awaited movie for Diehard Nolanoids is out and I, belonging to the nerdy flock, happened to see the movie exactly a day after its release. I couldn’t resist myself from knowing the response on the first day, but I stayed out of all the possible spoilers. Funny thing is you can’t actually spoil a Nolan’s movie. It isn’t like “Hey, Jake dies at the end”, it’s more than that. Don’t believe me? Try it. Though he has made 11 movies, he has shown the world that he is a paragon of a kind.

I went to the movie with my mizo friends because none of my hostel friends agree. When I tried to convince them by telling that Anne hathway is in the movie, one of my friend said “ya dude, she is there but in space suit, the entire time”. I guess he had a point, didn’t he?. A plot with hero thrashing his enemies without even a single drop of sweat on his face entertains them more than anything. Many talk about scientific anomalies in Nolan’s movies but worry little about how laws of physics are being violated, humiliated in Bollywood movies.

By the time we got inside, the movie had already started and we caught everyone’s eye off Mathew mcconaughey for a moment and finally parked our asses on comfy seats for a 15 minutes travel in something spectacular Nolan had ever created. And oh, by the way, there were subtitles and this fact brought smile on Indian faces.

I knew from the very beginning of the movie that story and plot wouldn’t go as simple as someone would expect. The chronology, though seems linear at times, will surely take turns in a Nolan’s movie. The cast is just tailor made, especially Mathew Mcconaughey. Because he brings that right charm to the movie through his remarkable acting skills. I have watched Dallas buyers’ club and true detective, the best of his works.

To put down the plot of such a behemoth space epic in words is certainly a tough task. It is about a group of explorers use a newly discovered wormhole to surpass the limitations on human space travel and conquer an interstellar endeavor. During this endeavor, three of my friends had a nice sleep. It’s clearly not everyone’s cup of tea, clocking in at nearly three hours in length, about a third of which is spent on an exhausted Earth. But for those who love astrophysics, it is a spectacle.

After watching the film, I would like to applaud Nolan for making a movie of a unique genre and for the quality of writing. Not many directors fall into his category and his distinct storytelling makes him stand separate from the mediocre crowd. The visualization of the black hole and the interstellar travel is incomparable. That’s what gives the movie an authentic look which most of the Sci-Fi movies lack. I am a freak and I like to gobble up any piece of knowledge when it comes to concepts such as time dilation, gravitational singularity, rotating black holes etc. The movie had all these elements. Despite the confusing timeline, yet there is a promising, enthralling, amazing work at display.

A bag full of questions.

Teenage is the most craziest phase of everyone’s life. You party, take selfies, poke n ping , prank your besties to death , eat-fart, post stupid things , stalk your crush , have a meaningless winky chat, wear low waist, throw up in your roommie’s bucket , urgh!. You will be lazy enough to always put your computer to sleep, coz, u know, restarting it would take 100 years.
But the moment the suffix “teen” gets chopped off your age, then begins most *I am not really good at coining words , so let’s just say* NONTEENAGEy phase your life. You pack up all your Dan brown series and start reading “the monk who sold his Ferrari” and “the alchemist”, start worrying about your fake relationship status on Facebook, start being noticeably conjoose. You actually start to THINK coz what you did till today is Ctrl C + Ctrl V. My mind has been thinking about following questions and the reason is, I am not in teenage anymore.

Here they are. * suit up and act mature*
Have you come ever come across things which were ridiculously funny at once but now , they are not funny anymore?

Things which were pellucid once and now the most complicated bag of crap?

Will you give a bullshit reason that you are being “tested” by GOD, when things are not working for you anymore?

Knowing that CHANGE is a universal law of nature, don’t you wanna be an OUTLAW?

Have you tried keeping your mind occupied and then realize you are busy doing nothing actually ?

Have you crossed your finger and sat to hear what you always wanted to hear, and it turns out you didn’t deserved to hear all the way?

Have you cried watching something and realized no matter how demonic your dark side is , you are still a human at heart?

Have you treated your heart like a chair that has place for all the clothes and bags than your closet?

Have you ever wondered why the feelings are always related to heart when heart does nothing but effing pumping?

So NONTEENAGy post isn’t it ?